I walked her to her chair and let go. As I closed her classroom door, I saw her reach for me and I signed, “I love you”. I could never love you more.
The closing of the car door symbolized the closing of the grandest chapter of my life. For nine years, my title has been ‘Mommy’ and I was more than happy to find my identity in that one word. With Evynn’s first day of Kindergarten, I found myself asking, “Who am I now?”.
That morning, I cried out to God. He knew my loneliness, He felt my heartache. And then He gave me peace.
I’m finding that with every life change comes a season of transition and adjustment. Change is inevitable, whether that change is for the best or it feels like it’s for the worst. But, with change comes opportunities that we wouldn’t have had before. Behind those opportunities lie the doors to our new or altered identities. And when our Father is in control of which doors open and which doors remain locked, then we can have faith that we are safe and loved to walk through to the other side – and find who we are in our next chapter.
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